Friends, my hubby and I are in a rough patch.
It’s one of those seasons for us where we just can’t seem to both get to the middle at the same time to meet there. Do you know those seasons? I’m sure you do.
So, it was during one particularly tough night last week when I lay awake next to my sleeping husband; (who, by the way, falls asleep the second his head hits the pillow which, even after 9 years still amazes me!) I was so mentally, spiritually and physically exhausted that I prayed in haste, “Father, fix him. I’m too tired to…”, when my prayer was interrupted with this,
“But…I made him.
I made him exactly the way he is supposed to be.
How can I fix him?”
Talk about feeling like a garbage human being! I TOLD God to fix one of his precious creations whom He loves so much He sent His ONLY son to the cross to die for!
It wasn’t even like I asked Him politely if He could just soften his heart a little bit or help him be a little more open minded, I just flat out told God to fix my husband as if I had no part in it. Yikes!
I got a huge reality check right then and there! I will not be making that mistake again any time soon!
But let’s rewind a bit because there is one more item to unpack out of my late night mishap which, I hope, will leave you much more encouraged this week.
First of all I prayed with the more informal title of “Father”. This may not seem like much to you but this was huge for me! You see, having been raised Catholic I always start my prayers with “Dear Heavenly Father” or “Almighty God”, which are still nice terms of endearment but I think you’ll agree are quite a bit more formal. So for me to reach out to Him with this plea, a blunder as it was, with this term shows me I am growing nearer to Him!
And not to mention that He spoke to my spirit so clearly and directly in that moment it was undeniable. How cool is that we can get to know the creator of everything so well He can speak to us immediately like this?
Can I get a Hallelujah!?
That’s what this is all about! Coming together to learn to live for Him!
A good old psalm comes to mind as I leave you,
“I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.” Psaml 139:14
So even in the rough patches we can praise and honor and worship Him because we are all made on purpose for a purpose because we are loved.
May God bless you,