Darkness
Darkness is not always the absence of light in our physical world.
Darkness can also be the absence of light in our lives, in our souls, in our hearts.
Darkness settles in around our home every winter. Our darkness is depression. It consumes all the light in our lives for a period. It’s a devastating enemy. An all-consuming blackness that overwhelms all of us.
As I sit and prepare for another season of darkness I again scheme and plan as to how I can once and for all defeat the enemy, defeat the darkness that looms, threatening to consume us.
Logic tells me that the only solution for dark is light. Light is the only thing that can overcome darkness. There literally cannot be darkness in the presence of light. But how many more ways can I try to be the light for someone who is so overcome by the darkness?
How helpless.
How out of control.
How devastating.
How lonely.
How hopeless.
This season of darkness seems.
What a crime, these stolen days, these stolen memories that could have been. What could have been during these beautiful days.
So again, I sit and wonder how to steal these moments back from the dark, how to get these beautiful moments back out into the light to create blessed memories when it strikes me, it’s clear as the light of day!
One moment at a time.
All we can live is one moment at a time. We cannot move forward into the next nor can we slide backward into the previous. All we can do is live each moment, one at a time.
So of course, there will be some dark moments still but each moment is a new chance. A new chance to shine the light and create those beautiful moments of life.
I wrote this in a moment of suffering in which I felt so alone but I know I am not alone.
I realize now that I need a brighter light!
I cannot do it alone.
I need to know I’m not alone and our family is not the only one suffering in silence with this enemy.
Is there anyone out there that lives with depression themselves or lives with someone who suffers from depression?
Because I would love to know your point of view on depression and most importantly what coping methods you’ve developed to get through these seasons?
We are all suffering from something, but please never forget, whatever it is, that God is the same then, now and always and therefore you, nor I, will ever be alone.
Lamentations 3:22-23 The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases, His mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.
Love,
Katie
